Blake Dekker here! Hi... wow I have nothing to say. Send me a message?
~RP~
Went to the zoo with my girls, naturally had to take a picture with a giraffe.
hummingbirds’s nest on my moleskine…
Don’t apologize, I did this. Not you, not really. My leaving wasn’t fair, but this? This is fair, you need to do this. That’s all that matters. Yeah I survived, but I never really lived till a met you. Just promise me that you’ll be alright.
I promise you I’ll be alright. And I know you’ll be alright until I get back.
I do have a nice incentive to be alright. When it’s all sad and done you’ll be back and if that wasn’t worth it I don’t know what would be.
Blake, I’m sorry that I’m making you think all these things. I just need time to think and I know it’s not fair to you. And I’ll help you let go but I know that you’re strong enough to do it. You’ve survived all this time without me. You’ll be alright. Promise.
Don’t apologize, I did this. Not you, not really. My leaving wasn’t fair, but this? This is fair, you need to do this. That’s all that matters. Yeah I survived, but I never really lived till a met you. Just promise me that you’ll be alright.
(Source: blakeheadswillrolldekker)
You’ll be able to pull away, Blake. We agreed to this. And I’m sure you’ll find an apartment. Look for the one that you had your heart set on. Everyone does something stupid every once in a while. But I know you’ll be alright. You’re strong.
No I know that we did. In my mind I know you’re coming back at some point but my… Heart I guess is afraid you won’t. What I’m saying is I’m not sure I can make my arms fall away. I was being sarcastic, seems I tend to do stupid things a lot. I’m not as strong as you seem to think I am.
(Source: blakeheadswillrolldekker)
We’ll do it right, Blake. However that is. What would I be making you let go of? You’ll be just fine without me for a little while. I promise. Just stay in one spot, keep feeding and don’t do anything stupid. Okay?
Okay, I believe you. I mean you’ll have to literally pull yourself away from me because I won’t want to unwrap my arms from around you. I won’t really, be fine I mean but I’ll manage. I’m not going anywhere, except to you know find an apartment, I never did get around to doing that. Feed got it. Stupid? Me? That’s crazy.
(Source: blakeheadswillrolldekker)
It momentarily defines our relationship. And time will give me a chance to really think about all of this, you leaving and all that. Thank you for not fighting me on this. I’ll kiss you, Blake. Like you really had to ask. But once I kiss you, I have to go away for a while. Away from the campus.
I meant that if we do this right then in the end things will workout. And if we do them wrong then I’m not sure where we’d be. And of course I’m not going to fight you on it, it’s something you want, need, and I need you to have it. I understand, and you have to understand that I’m going to hold on for dear life, you just have to force me to let go because I don’t think I can do it on my own.
(Source: blakeheadswillrolldekker)
